Monday, June 7, 2010

Memorization and Meditation

Hey friends!

Throughout the season I have been going through these last few months, I have been convicted of my need to really get deeper into God's word. One of the primary ways I wanted to do that was through resuming scripture memorization. So, I started writing verses I wanted to memorize on some index cards.

The verse God had really impressed upon my heart these past two weeks was Ephesians 3:20, which says in the New Living Translation, "Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think."

I have been clinging to that verse in the moments that felt difficult... the ones where I felt heartache and the ones where I wondered about the future. Now, as I sit here continuing to put my hope in that promise, I realize that God really made that promise come true in my life last week, by no merit of my own.

As I have written about before, I am currently unemployed. I have applied for a part-time unpaid internship because it strongly relates to the vision God has given me for the ministry that is on my heart, and therefore am looking for a part-time job - though that is sightly difficult given my schedule restrictions with the internship. However, I believe that the internship is part of God's plan in preparing me for this ministry, so I am making that the priority and trusting Him to provide.

Well, last week, He provided "infinitely more" than I imagined, for sure! After not having received the monthly spousal support I was supposed to be receiving from my estranged husband for three months, it finally arrived last week - giving me enough money to cover my bills for the month. Then, when I needed money for the divorce filing fees sooner than I thought I would, God graciously provided again - in a fashion that was far more amazing than I expected! His provision last week was overwhelming and amazing. It blew me away. It really showed that promise to be true in my life. Again, thank you to everyone's generous support!

Today, God gave me a verse that kind of echos the same sentiment as Ephesians 3:20 for me, which is 1 Corinthians 2:9, which says in the New International Version, "However, as it is written: No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him." They both really talk about God going far above all that we can imagine or dream - in everything He does.

I think we should certainly have big expectations of God and not limit Him - but I think even in our humanness, God's way is to out-do even our biggest expectations :) And it leaves me full of praise!

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